People already didn’t like me. The fact that I’d killed was just an excuse to get rid of what they didn’t want. No one is going to turn around and change their opinion now, even if I “showed remorse.”
And what does that mean, exactly? I already said right before I died that I never meant for them to die. I’m sad they did. All I ever wanted to do was help people, but the only way I could think to go about it was wrong. If you want me to simply suffer and be miserable I’ve done plenty of that already.
Yeah, people can be cruel. [ She didn't love how people talked about him either. ] But sayin' that yer sad... The problem is that ya drilled holes in 'em in the first place.
Normally when ya hurt someone like that, they die.
Mm... well, nobody dies right away. They always linger.
And then I didn't die, and neither did Kazuta or Detective Hondomachi. So it was hard for me to simply say "it doesn't work, so I should stop." [His track record is literally 3 people lived, giving him a 33% survival rate I'm furious about it. the fucking threes.]
[Looks down at his hands. Or. His hand and... stump. I keep forgetting he only has one hand right now. Normally he would just brush it off!!! But!!! He's trying to be honest this time.]
I... don't know, miss Yuel. I just couldn't. John Walker did something to my brain.
I don't entirely know... But he kept visiting me in my dreams and trying to get me to kill. Apparently he was influencing other people in the same way. [He sighs.]
Anyway. I said I wasn't interested in doing that to anyone else here unless they wanted me to, and I stand by that. But if you don't believe me I don't want to stay here and make you uncomfortable.
I was, yes. I think it's fine now? [Thus why he's confident in his assurance that he won't drill murder anyone else.]
Mm, well. I never really thought much about fashion before because I didn't go outside much. But it's something Grell care about so I thought I ought to start figuring it out.
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People already didn’t like me. The fact that I’d killed was just an excuse to get rid of what they didn’t want. No one is going to turn around and change their opinion now, even if I “showed remorse.”
And what does that mean, exactly? I already said right before I died that I never meant for them to die. I’m sad they did. All I ever wanted to do was help people, but the only way I could think to go about it was wrong. If you want me to simply suffer and be miserable I’ve done plenty of that already.
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Normally when ya hurt someone like that, they die.
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And then I didn't die, and neither did Kazuta or Detective Hondomachi. So it was hard for me to simply say "it doesn't work, so I should stop."
[His track record is literally 3 people lived, giving him a 33% survival rate I'm furious about it. the fucking threes.]
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I... don't know, miss Yuel. I just couldn't. John Walker did something to my brain.
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Who the hay is that?
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[He sighs.]
Anyway. I said I wasn't interested in doing that to anyone else here unless they wanted me to, and I stand by that. But if you don't believe me I don't want to stay here and make you uncomfortable.
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[ waves her hand ]
What're ya doin' anyway? Is that the kinda fashion ya like?
[ pointing to the sunglasses ]
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[Thus why he's confident in his assurance that he won't drill murder anyone else.]
Mm, well. I never really thought much about fashion before because I didn't go outside much. But it's something Grell care about so I thought I ought to start figuring it out.
Mostly it's just fun to poke around, though.
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Aah, we are. I'm really lucky to have met her.
[Grill is such a cursed ship but Fukuda is very sincerely happy about it, at least.]
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... Happy for ya.
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